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Feeling: Ranty
Weather: Cool
Listening To: Seether Featuring Amy Lee- Broken

So today is the 9th September 2009, or 090909. I couldn’t resist getting this entry as well, though :P

Anyway, as with any other “special” day, a lot of couples choose to get married on this day. En masse. I just don’t get it.

First of all, the point of weddings is to celebrate your union with your significant other. Sure, weddings don’t necessarily mean that you have finally “gotten” your significant other in your grasp legally so now you don’t have to work for your relationship and continue appreciating them in every way possible. In fact, weddings and/or marriage is just another step- it’s a start. If at all, you need to work harder on your relationship now that you’re married, and not take your significant other for granted even more. So, anyway, weddings are supposed to be special, and personal, and intimate, between a couple… so why share it with [insert random number here] couples together at one go? D: It completely loses its uniqueness :| I’ll never understand mass weddings.

Second of all, call me superstitious, but this is the 7th lunar month, also known to the Chinese as the Hungry Ghost Month. By tradition, it’s not a favourable month to do anything auspicious, such as renovating your house, moving house, and especially not get married because of all the so-called “negative” energy emanating from the month. So why do the couples who, knowing this, still choose to get married on this day? D: Yes, I know, something like 090909 doesn’t come along everyday, but still. Just to “remember” your anniversary on a date that “special”? I’d like to know, is it worth taking this risk? :x I may not be the most superstitious person around, but I’d rather play safe than be sorry >_>

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So err… yeah… otherwise, happy 090909 and stuff :P

In other news, I can’t wait for tomorrow ♥

Feeling: Exhausted, Guilty, Crappy
Weather: Cool
Listening To: Luna Sea- Crazy About You

I really do. I know that I shouldn’t be, and that things aren’t my fault and are beyond my control, but still.

Shit happened earlier. The night started innocuously enough- waiting for him to get off work so we could have a late dinner, and once he arrived, set out for Kayu Nasi Kandar near my place. I suppose it’s a lapse of judgment on everyone involved’s part- me, Louis and my Mum. First, we were using his car- his Dad‘s car to be exact. Secondly, no one remembered his Kata laptop bag, with his Dell laptop, in the car. And when we returned after food, the rear passenger window was smashed in and the bag had gone ._.

Strangely, I don’t feel any anger for the people who did this, though. I know I’d normally rage and rant about how they should be disemboweled, decapitated, etc. but for some reason, not this time.

I am rather fond of that bag of his, and the laptop has seen me through days of boredom (As well as getting work done on it) whilst working in Gamer’s Hideout at Tropicana City Mall and has kept me company when Louis lent it to me… so yeah, there’s the sense of attachment there. That, and I also know that he needs to use them, especially when his University begins. Sigh.

Well, I suppose that we should be thankful in a way that nothing else was damaged or taken.

That being said, I can’t help but internalise what has happened. Meh. There’s so many “what if” questions, and also, what’s eating me inside is that I also think that since Louis has started dating me, he’s been going through a lot, and a lot of things like this has happened to him. Yes, I can’t help but feel that way, for being some sort of misfortune to him. All I can do for him now is to try and support him as much as I can, and to be strong for him, but admittedly, it’s hard, and it’s not in me to try to be patient and understanding >_> I just want to hug Louis. I just want everything to go well for him. I just want everything to go smoothly for him. I really do love him, and of course, I want the best for him. I want to be there for him through everything, and we will go through all of this together, and I will try my best to help him. After all, tragedies and problems either make or break bonds.

Yes, I do know that shit does happen, but why does it have to? I mean, what’s the point? :| It’s not like we need to be taught a lesson… or maybe we do when it comes to carefulness ._. But Louis still didn’t deserve it. He doesn’t deserve any of this.

And for now: Need money T_T

I don’t feel like going to class. I can feel a relapse of depression :x

P.S. I also hate people who take advantage of me, talking to me/asking me stuff only when they need it, but otherwise ignoring me completely. I feel very insulted and used.

Feeling: Indignant
Weather: Humid
Listening To: Ichimaru Gin- Hyouri

“About 300 stray dogs were rounded up by Pulau Ketam residents and deported to an isolated island to fend for themselves. Over half of them are already dead and the remaining ones may not live long. A rescue mission is being mounted and your help is needed.“- Pulau Ketam Dog Rescue Mission.

I feel compelled to make a post out of this, because my heart twinges with ache for the fates and plight of the poor dogs. For those who do not know about this issue yet, here is where you can get all the information and updates.

My intention of writing this (short) post is not to solicit help (Considering my close-knit and limited group of readers) in any way, nor is it to put the blame on any party (As mentioned on the site, what’s important is saving the dogs for now- although admittedly, I cannot help but question what is wrong with the people, to be able to carry out such atrocious, callous acts towards animals, and cannot help cursing them deep down inside. I am hardly humanistic nor as forgiving), but it is good to have some exposure or awareness about issues such as this, and I am merely spreading the word around.

I love animals, even more so than I love my fellow humans (Because of their ability to do such things). Cases like this just makes me lose even more faith towards humanity and turn a blind eye towards the afflictions that are affecting them.

Yes, cases like these are more touching, heart-rending and important to me than cases like rebellion and genocide of humans >_>

Feeling: Tired
Weather: Humid
Listening To: Luna Sea- 4 A.M.

For the semester is finally over!

This semester was tiring- mentally, socially and academically. The only good things about this semester are HAN101 Introduction To Anthropology as a whole and Ms. Winnee for PSY201 Advanced Research Methodology, as a person but not the subject. Sadly, the lecturer for HAN101 Introduction To Anthropology (Who is a senior lecturer and the same lecturer I had for HPH101 Introduction To Philosophy) is leaving. I am sad, because I loved her classes, and her as a person for she is awesome, although her knowledge intimidates me sometimes XD Going out on a lunch and shopping trip with her sometime this week…

I am quite confident I can pass all of my subjects. I might not get very shiny marks this time (And drag down my CGPA slightly), save for HAN101 Introduction To Anthropology, but I will pass nonetheless. After all, I did do my best, and most of the shit that happened is by no fault of mine.

A note to myself for the subsequent semesters: Never, ever allow tutors or lecturers, or even friends to randomly slot in people into our group assignments at the last minute, and if my gut feeling tells me that the person is bad news, he/she most likely is. I’ve learnt my lesson this semester and paid the price =_=

Going to have quite a long break, as the next semester commences on 11th May 2009. I will most likely be taking four subjects as opposed to three. Hopefully I can cope, but it shouldn’t be a problem XD My holidays will be spent catching up on things I want to do such as honing my Japanese, sleeping as much as I can to make up for the lack of sleep I’m experiencing and maybe revamp my room. Maybe.

Feeling rather bored last night, I stumbled on an interesting course I could consider for my Masters degree: Psychological And Psychiatric Anthropology :D It sounds so interesting (Also no thanks to the beloved lecturer who further fueled my interest in Anthropology)! I’m considering it, as well as Occupational Psychology (Which has always been my first choice, also known as Industrial/Organisational Psychology), depending on which one has less emphasis on research and more emphasis on application. Applied Psychology for the win!

This semester has made me so rant-y. Argh.

On a side note, I still can’t find a Twitter widget/application/plugin/tool thing for my sidebar that’s tailored to my tastes or looks the way I want it to :(

Now I am going to celebrate by playing on my Wii :D