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09
Sep 2009

090909 Rant

Stephanie @ Wednesday, 11:46 pm

Feeling: Ranty
Weather: Cool
Listening To: Seether Featuring Amy Lee- Broken

So today is the 9th September 2009, or 090909. I couldn’t resist getting this entry as well, though :P

Anyway, as with any other “special” day, a lot of couples choose to get married on this day. En masse. I just don’t get it.

First of all, the point of weddings is to celebrate your union with your significant other. Sure, weddings don’t necessarily mean that you have finally “gotten” your significant other in your grasp legally so now you don’t have to work for your relationship and continue appreciating them in every way possible. In fact, weddings and/or marriage is just another step- it’s a start. If at all, you need to work harder on your relationship now that you’re married, and not take your significant other for granted even more. So, anyway, weddings are supposed to be special, and personal, and intimate, between a couple… so why share it with [insert random number here] couples together at one go? D: It completely loses its uniqueness :| I’ll never understand mass weddings.

Second of all, call me superstitious, but this is the 7th lunar month, also known to the Chinese as the Hungry Ghost Month. By tradition, it’s not a favourable month to do anything auspicious, such as renovating your house, moving house, and especially not get married because of all the so-called “negative” energy emanating from the month. So why do the couples who, knowing this, still choose to get married on this day? D: Yes, I know, something like 090909 doesn’t come along everyday, but still. Just to “remember” your anniversary on a date that “special”? I’d like to know, is it worth taking this risk? :x I may not be the most superstitious person around, but I’d rather play safe than be sorry >_>

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So err… yeah… otherwise, happy 090909 and stuff :P

In other news, I can’t wait for tomorrow ♥

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08
Sep 2009

I Feel Like Crap

Stephanie @ Tuesday, 02:33 am

Feeling: Exhausted, Guilty, Crappy
Weather: Cool
Listening To: Luna Sea- Crazy About You

I really do. I know that I shouldn’t be, and that things aren’t my fault and are beyond my control, but still.

Shit happened earlier. The night started innocuously enough- waiting for him to get off work so we could have a late dinner, and once he arrived, set out for Kayu Nasi Kandar near my place. I suppose it’s a lapse of judgment on everyone involved’s part- me, Louis and my Mum. First, we were using his car- his Dad‘s car to be exact. Secondly, no one remembered his Kata laptop bag, with his Dell laptop, in the car. And when we returned after food, the rear passenger window was smashed in and the bag had gone ._.

Strangely, I don’t feel any anger for the people who did this, though. I know I’d normally rage and rant about how they should be disemboweled, decapitated, etc. but for some reason, not this time.

I am rather fond of that bag of his, and the laptop has seen me through days of boredom (As well as getting work done on it) whilst working in Gamer’s Hideout at Tropicana City Mall and has kept me company when Louis lent it to me… so yeah, there’s the sense of attachment there. That, and I also know that he needs to use them, especially when his University begins. Sigh.

Well, I suppose that we should be thankful in a way that nothing else was damaged or taken.

That being said, I can’t help but internalise what has happened. Meh. There’s so many “what if” questions, and also, what’s eating me inside is that I also think that since Louis has started dating me, he’s been going through a lot, and a lot of things like this has happened to him. Yes, I can’t help but feel that way, for being some sort of misfortune to him. All I can do for him now is to try and support him as much as I can, and to be strong for him, but admittedly, it’s hard, and it’s not in me to try to be patient and understanding >_> I just want to hug Louis. I just want everything to go well for him. I just want everything to go smoothly for him. I really do love him, and of course, I want the best for him. I want to be there for him through everything, and we will go through all of this together, and I will try my best to help him. After all, tragedies and problems either make or break bonds.

Yes, I do know that shit does happen, but why does it have to? I mean, what’s the point? :| It’s not like we need to be taught a lesson… or maybe we do when it comes to carefulness ._. But Louis still didn’t deserve it. He doesn’t deserve any of this.

And for now: Need money T_T

I don’t feel like going to class. I can feel a relapse of depression :x

P.S. I also hate people who take advantage of me, talking to me/asking me stuff only when they need it, but otherwise ignoring me completely. I feel very insulted and used.

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02
Sep 2009

Fall Season

Stephanie @ Wednesday, 06:02 pm

Feeling: Lethargic
Weather: Cool
Listening To: The Offspring- Gone Away

It’s supposedly fall now! How time flies. And countdown: 4 more days D:

University has started, and the first week of class has ended. Yay for this semester’s schedule :D

Advanced Quantitative Methods will be the most probable death of me, and maybe even Biopsychology… but I know that I can still cope with the latter because it’s a subject that I am at least interested in and have some basic knowledge in :P Advanced Quantitative Methods is… statistics T_T Enough said. Abnormal Psychology will start next Monday instead due to a public holiday this week, so I’m not really sure how it will be like yet. So far, the assignment and research workload isn’t that heavy thankfully, but the subjects are still somewhat demanding and studying is a definite requirement.

It feels nice to be able to see old friends again though, like Tibbar and Jeihan amongst others :3

Louis has moved back to Banting, and parents will be leaving for Sarawak this Friday, so I’ll be overnighting at Banting tomorrow night to send them to the airport. I love going over to stay- it’s almost like a second home to me. It feels nice there and I do feel welcomed (They’ve also made the effort to celebrate my birthday for me early, on Monday, and I am feeling part-embarrassed and part-honoured) :3 Too bad it’s a bit too far for me (But then again, Louis has to travel from Banting to P.J. and back again. Just thinking about it makes me feel tired too), and to be honest I still don’t really know my way there >_>

Among the other changes that are happening is that I won’t be working at Gamer’s Hideout or Storybook that often T_T Neither will Louis be after the 14th September, when he starts his classes. All of these are definitely going to have an impact on everything around me, so yeah. I’ve got to be prepared and endure them, whether I like it or not :x Oh well, at least I won’t be alone, because Louis will feel the changes as well and we do want to get through this together. Fingers crossed that we’ll make it out alive, I suppose :P

Lately it seems that I have been rather addicted to my Sony Cyber-Shot T-77 digital camera >_> Proof as below- be warned, the post might start to get image heavy XD

At New York New York Deli in 1 Utama for dinner one Saturday. Did I mention how much I love his eyes? :D They’re pretty in both shape and colour, and I could spend quite some time just staring into them.

Here is Louis, attacking the Giant Yankee Burger, which is about 8″ in size (Finish everything alone and you get it for free) :P Note the look of what seems to be amusement on his face XD

Taken inside Louis’s car (A Perodua Viva) at my University main block parking lot XD This is while we were whiling time away waiting for his passport to be completed. I don’t remember what’s with the expression though, but it’s pretty amusing >_>

So… he was trying to get 40 or so winks while waiting for time to be up. And I draped the RM 300 DC Shoes hoodie I got for him on him for the shot :P The hoodie is pure win and pwn and looks good on him :D

I love this photo the most so far :x It’s an almost pretty random shot- taken while waiting for the tinting on the main and driver’s side windows of his car to be replaced at C.V. Car Hi-Fi And Accessories in Kepong, and we were bored. Louis was trying on my Ray-Ban RB3211 shield aviator sunglasses, but they’re admittedly too small for his face. He does look good with these kind of sunglasses though :3 However, I don’t get to see his eyes T_T

Oh, I also got a new Braun Buffel wallet :D My old Alain Delon wallet has been with me for about 7 years give or take, so it’s about time it retired I guess :x I bought this wallet from the Braun Buffel at 1 Utama‘s Jusco, because the Braun Buffelboutiques didn’t have this wallet or a similar design that I want.

I am definitely a lover of nice, pretty packaging, and this is no exception XD If I am not mistaken, the model is called Hartz, and it cost RM 318. No discount because it’s a new arrival, and it has 12 card slots instead of my usual 9. I’m quite picky when it comes to getting a wallet (I absolutely refuse to call it a purse, or refer to anything of mine as one)- bi-fold, two bill slots, 9 or more card slots, at least one clear slot, black and soft.

How it looks like open… well, partially open. The other side opens exactly the same. This wallet fulfills my picky requirements, which is why I got it XD It’s going to last me a long time, hopefully for another 7 years give or take I guess @_@ Oh, and that’s Louis‘s name card I have. The other clear slot is reserved for a photo of us together… if we ever get a nice photo taken :P

I’ve definitely enjoyed my holidays this time for sure- the experiences, the people I’ve met and the like, and I am very happy to be able to be a part of it. The only taint that mars the whole event would be my family- who, although I love them and understand why they reacted the way they did, constantly and undeniably drive me up the wall and seriously needs to learn to let go and be less dependant on me *Sigh* ._.

Oh well. It’s always the darkest before dawn.

Also, time to do some housekeeping around the site, what with the changes and all >_> Argh, I shall do it when I’m not so tired :x

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17
Aug 2009

o hai

Stephanie @ Monday, 03:54 pm

Feeling: Pensive
Weather: Freezing Cold Where I Am
Listening To: Tokio Hotel- Monsoon

I… seriously can’t even be bothered with a proper title :D And I haven’t updated in ages either. Plus, I am updating from work (The branch at Tropicana City Mall), with the use of a laptop that’s not mine >_> So in the span of time I have sorta kinda abandoned my blog, a lot of changes have taken place and a lot of things have happened, but to be honest, I don’t feel like writing them all down for obvious reasons XD

Things might get a bit ranty, I suppose.

One of them is that Adrian and me have mutually agreed to separate, and I am currently attached to Louis, whom I have briefly written about here. If you really really want details, feel free to ask, but I will only tell you provided that I know you and I feel that I can trust you :x To make it brief, it’s more of a clash of ambitions and values and long-term compatibility and fit. Admittedly, there are still kinks I need to iron out with my relationship with Louis, but I am learning and trying to adapt, and I am very happy being with him. There are also some major obstacles we might be facing (So early on in the relationship too, but better earlier than never, plus it’s good experience that we learn to handle things like this), but we’ve agreed to see through them together, and I am keeping my fingers crossed that we’ll make it through intact.

That, and I also really need to stop thinking too much and getting too caught up with things that have passed, but meh. I know it’s not a good thing, but there are some things that have happened to me in the past that causes my tendency to rewind, look back, evaluate and re-evaluate, and it’s a hard and not to mention painful habit to kick. Louis knows and understands, and is supportive, but I personally don’t want to push it too much :|

I really love my job at Gamer’s Hideout. The bosses are all awesome, for one, and so are the colleagues. They really look out for their staff. However, apart from working for Gamer’s Hideout, I am also doing some work for their partner Storybook :D So yeah. The job’s from 12 p.m. to 10 p.m., and it is slightly tiring considering I reach home at around 11 p.m. the earliest if I’m lucky, and go to bed at about 2 a.m. or more, and I don’t really get much time to do the things I normally do. I am, however, coping, but that doesn’t help the fact that I have turned into a panda T_T It’s all quite worth it though, and I am happy :P I want to continue working for them, if possible!

There is also some familial turmoil, which is stressing me out. Amazingly, Louis was perceptive enough to see without me telling him anything, and I really appreciate him for it, and for trying to help me handle it. I always say that the traditional Asian value of filial piety is going to be the death of our people, or at least me, and it can’t be any true. Maybe I should make a thesis topic out of it? XD Oh well. I believe and hope that things will look up soon.

That’s all I think I’m going to divulge for now D: I shall have photos to accompany my posts when I am more free to upload them XD

University starts on the 1st September. How time flies when you’re enjoying yourself, and I don’t really look forward to going back for some reason >_> Oh well. The only thing that intrigues me are the subjects, which would be awesome.

I want The Beatles: Rock Band so badly! Here is their trailer :D

Oh, and I would also like to add that I am now pretty much officially a contact lens convert XD I have 4 pairs of coloured contact lenses now- blue, green, brown and purple, and I alternate them around <_< I also think that I might need a new laptop soon, because mine seems to dying a slow, painful-ish death T_T

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